Belated Halloween

Great another waste of time on a date.   “So I bought dinner……want to come home with me?”  Is this really happening? I am sitting here looking at nice guy who now feels I should go home with him because he bought me dinner.  “I appreciate you buying dinner and the great conversation but I wouldn’t go home with you just because you bought dinner.” “Well you know if you were going to be stuck up asshole I would have stayed home.”  In my mind I control myself from reaching over the table and grabbing him. “I am sorry you feel that way…..I wish all the best.”

I get up from the table and walk myself home.  Dam it’s a five mile way.  Oh well burn off dinner there is ice cream waiting for me at home.   Walking down the street on the home are decorated for Halloween.   I am not one for Halloween my parents never took me trick or treating.  I do still hand out candy and make my grandmother’s caramel apples for the kids in the neighborhood.  We are a tight knit neighborhood we look after each other.  

Halloween is unseasonable cool this year so I am making my spiced apple cider for myself and ladies as we sit and hand out candy.   Molly, Tracy, Leslie, Samantha and I sit around handing out candy tothe kids.   Their husbands get the duty of taking the kids to trick or treating.  “Danny this apple cider is missing just one thing……..” Samantha pours a little extra something to spice it.  We truly laugh out loud, the ladies pass around a flask which they skip right over me because they know I do not drink.  “Danny, how was the date?” Molly asks.   Jokingly “I am going to take your husbands you ladies all have the last perfect men on earth.” In unison “Danny you can have them.” “Danny Jason loves your cooking and says you should come and cook for us.” We all just laugh.  “Ladies, I love you and your families but I need some me time.  I need to think about what I need and am I expecting too much.” “You need a cock in your life Danny.” Laughing hysterically Samantha yells to me.  

“Who is that in the red car?” Like the wives of the neighborhood we realized that car was not apart of our neighborhood and I quickly get defense.  WOW! The most beautiful man step out of the car dressed in a princess outfit.  Leslie places her hand under my chin to lift my mouth up.  Reality hits he is a cool dad who brought his  daughter out trick or treating.   “Trick or treat.” “You have to be the prettiest princess I have seen.” “Thank You sir.” We all gave her candy and she politely asks “ May I have a caramel apple?” “Let’s ask your dad.” “ Oh I am not her father, she may have one.” I had life in my body again, the zombie inside of me was perking up.   Samantha was known for her forwardness “ You don’t live around here and if she is not your daughter should we be calling the police.” “SAMANTHA!” he smiles and says “ No need I am her uncle, her parents passed away a year ago in a car accident and I adopted my niece. We are moving in down the road.”  My heart melted and I was so amazed and it what this man was doing for his family.  “Well you and your wife are more than welcome to come over to my place for dinner next week and please bring……….” “Emily, and I am not married. Actually when her parents died my partner cheated on me while I was going back and forth taking care of matters to adopt Emily…..my name is Timothy….and you are…..” I was praying the blood would slow down and I could breath.  “Danny….my name is Danny.” Molly interrupts “Emily would those are my daughters would you like to go over and meet them.  You will all probably be in the same class at school together.”  “Wonderful idea” Leslie echos.   They all run off and I am alone with Tim.   Ok we are those gay men and it look at each other and smile.   His princess custom was pointing in the all the wrong directions and my shorts were as well.

We walked around my place. I wanted to talk to him and I know I wanted to know more about him.   We talked as it no one existed on this planet.  We are in the backyard sitting and holding hands like it was meant to be.  “I am so sorry please forgive me….” “Forgive you for……” Timothy planted the longest sweetest kiss on my lips.  “Danny I stopped because of  you.” He brought me in close to him he caressed my back and I melted into him.  Our cocks were at full attention and he pushed me in the chair and asked my permission “May I…..” I smiled as he slowly slide my shorts down my cock flings out and down he goes. His hands are caressed my balls while finger wants to explore.  His mouth felt so amazing the cool breeze in the air, Tim going down on me.   He felt amazing I have had my fair share of blow jobs but David was making me love to my cock.  He was gently and pleasure it like never before.   I could not hold it any longer……”Tim I am going to cum…….” Tim never leaves my cock unattended and takes my whole load.  “Uncle Tim…..” We frantically get dressed and sit in the chairs as if nothing happened.  “Uncle Tim…I meet Melissa and July they are going to be in my class next week when I start school.” “Honey that is wonderful you are already making friends.”  “Uncle Tim made a friend as well.”  The wives knew what had happen I need new friends.   It was a week later Tim and I went on our first date though we knew wanted each other so bad

The Bitch in is us all....ok well I guess me.

 Growing up the baby I was always left out.  My older brothers got the attention because they were athletic and my sisters got the attention well they were the girls in the family. The last male child well I was on my own. I grew up different than my other siblings. I was not athletic I just studied hard in school.
 I am almost 40 and everything in my life I have been in charge.  I became one of the successful leaders of one of the major local companies here in town. I have hired and fired people over the past few years.  I have had to grow up and be an asshole to survive in my family and to be the boss that I have become.  I am gay and proud but in my line of work I have not had the opportunity to have a real relationship.  Most guys see me as the money and I have to let them go....Of course after I get their ass.
A lonely Friday night and of course its the head in between my legs that is controlling everything. Ok well lets get on the APP and see whats on.  Well hello DYS25 well my cock likes that way and I begin to chat.   Typing to him "What does DYS stand for? I mean I guess your 25" "Different Young Stud....I am a top." I am in bed thinking really what the hell is this 25 year old kid really going to do that is so different.  I haven't been topped in years I liked it but it better be worth me laying on my back or grabbing my ankles for me to get fucked.  "Your a hot older man!" Older who the hell is the kid.  "Well come over and find out what this older man can do for you!!" After an exchange of information and one more comment from me "I am naked already was heading to bed.... I am going to be naked when I answer the door."   His app closes and and I thought oh well I am sure he thinks I am creepy old man. Little fucker doesn't know I am a runner and lifter.   I get that nice young ass and send him on his way.
" Come in " he walks in with such confidence and not even phased that I am naked sporting a hard on. " What do you get into.......Darren?" "I was about to ask you that....Jake but since you asked me first......Well I would like to fuck a nice tight hole." "What a coincidence I am thinking the same thing." A part of me is about to kick him out obviously his kid is too fucking arrogant for his own good.   I am intrigued.   I walk up to him and Jake takes me pushes my face down into his shorts. What the fuck is going on here.....This kid is taking control and I am getting turned on. "Rub your face in my cock...NOW" I as I am told.  He pushes me away and pulls out a nice 8.5in thick cock and walks up to me. "Suck my cock!" My own cock so engorged by his attitude and of course his beautiful cock. "You like that  cock don't you? You little bitch"  Wait a minute BITCH.  I look up at him and he stares me down.  "I haven't asked you to stop SWALLOW MY COCK!" After about ten minutes he pulled me up kissed me.  "Bend over the couch and show me your pussy!" WHAT THE FUCK IS THE KID!! "You want me to eat that pussy! I am eat the man pussy and get it ready for this cock!" I am going to let this 25 year old kid fuck me! Nervous kick in because his cock is pretty big  but it has been sometime.  His tongue digs straight into my hole..."EAT MY MAN PUSSY! DON'T STOP" I am in....and I can tell he appreciates it he is digging into my ass like it was his last meal. "I LOVE THE WAY YOUR PUSSY TASTES" I have never been so turned on and never wanted to be fucked like I wanted to right at this moment. He all of suffed smacks my ass so hard and I could was beg to keep eating go deeper as he smacked my ass.  " I am going to fuck your man pussy so hard!" " A bitch like you should be able to HANDLE IT!"  Nerves kick in but the man in me was saying GO FOR IT on the inside.  He rubbed his cock over my hole "PLEASE DON'T TEASE ME HOLE...FUCK ME PLEASE....FUCK MY PUSSY" The head of his cock entered my hole and I grimmced in pain.  "DAM YOUR PUSSY IS SO TIGHT!" ":Tell me you want it...or I AM LEAVING" "Please FUCK MY PUSSY! FUCK MY MAN PUSSY" With one big thrust all 8.5in cock was inside of me. "FUCK....OMG! YOUR ASS IS TO TIGHT!!! He showed no mercy on me and I have been so turned on.  "FUCK ME HARDER!!" Jake began to pump harder when I least expected he picked me up and fucked me on the wall! " THATS HOW MY BITCH LIKES IT" So rough I was giving him complete control my body needed this in more ways than one.  He pulled himself out "YOU LOOK DISAPPOINTED....NEED MORE COCK? BEG FOR IT" " Pleast fuck my pussy again!! Please give it to me good!! I need your cock!" "Get on your knees.....BITCH" My ass was in the air waiting for his cock needing his cock inside of me. He thrusted himself in one swoop....I could hear his balls slap against my ass.."DAM YOU HAVE THE BEST PUSSY I HAVE EVER HAD." He laid me on my back and continued to fuck me......"DAM BITCH!! YOU LOVE COCK! YOUR EYES ARE IN BACK OF YOUR HEAD" the expressions just made him pump harder. "BITCH....I WANT YOUR MAN PUSSY WITH MY LOAD....THATS FOR NEXT TIME.....GET OVER HERE," I got up on my knees he grabbed my hair I opened my mouth and loads of cum flew in.  I shot my load on the floor in front of me.  "NICE LOAD...BITCH. GUESS YOU LIKE THE COCK IN YOUR MAN PUSSY." All I could do was nod my head.  He stands up...helps me up.  "Man this was so much fun...your ass is amazing" "Your cock is amazing....WOW! No one has fucked me like that before.....HELL NO ONE has ever really fucked me in years." "Well can I say you look like a man who is in control all the time.....and I wanted you not to be." "Jake you picked up on that right away....I appreciate it." DAM....I kind of want him to stay so he could fuck me again in the morning. I better send him on his way.  "Take care hit me up again."
Off to bed I went its going to be long day and my ass is now hurting from the fucking it got.  I went to bed amazed at how perceptive this kid  was.
In the next morning walking with limp of course explained that tripped running this morning.  My assistant walks in  coffee in hand...."Linda thank you I needed this cup of coffee": "Here our your messages, mail, and notes from yesterdays meeting." "Thanks Linda....move my 3 to 4 and can you make dinner reservations for myself and our new clients.   You know where! " "Of course I do...and by the way I wanted to Thank You again Mr. Marin" "Yes...of course....Linda....wait FOR WHAT?" "Hiring my son Jake or the summer.....he will be here the entire summer before starting graduate school." What the fuck did I just do.....What are the odds?...." Jake comes in and says Thank you Mr.Marin": "Jake pleasure to meet you" "Mr. Marin thank you so much for this opportunity and if there is anything else I can be of service to you. Let me know" Oh well yes you will be of service...my cock is all that was running through my mind. I owed him a fucking like he gave me.  He walked behind his mother turned around and winked at me.

Finally opening up

Over the past year I kind of secluded myself.  I felt like I needed to work on myself.  I love the gym working and just doing whatever I want to do.   I had gone on a few dates but was afraid to open myself up sexually again.
Well I decided it was time and I allowed a man to have me.  He claimed to be ready to work my ass over.   We reached the moment and he slide his cock inside of me and after a moment I for some reason took over. I forced myself against his hips. I would clench my hips and withing 5 minutes he yelled "I AM GOING TO CUM" I slowed down and then clamped down on his cock again.  He shocked inside of me. Granted it felt good to have a man inside of me but was not pleasured.  He pulled himself out and then the rubber and it was filled with cum.  He told me I was too rough for him......I told him to leave so I could finish myself off.  
WHAT A WASTE OF A TOP!!!

Oh well......I am ready for more! Maybe someone can get it right!

I would never date HIM.....

Living so close to work is nice the luxury of walking to work every morning saving money on gas and just breathing fresh air is amazing.  Ok well and the male joggers running in the morning is just an added bonus.   Every morning Jaime is taking his morning run.  Jeffrey is about 5’8” latin black hair probably a 30” waist and from what I can tell from his shorts a nice looking cock that sways side to side as he runs by.

Jeffrey knows I am checking him out and I think purposely stops to stretch make sure I am near before be starts his run again.  The swear the glistens off his body just turns me on.  Thank God I still usually have a five minute walk time for my hard on go down though the tough going behind a bush with Jeffrey let him blow me doesn’t help my situation.  Oh well rumor is Jeffrey is gay no one around town has seen him with anyone significant and my best friend Stacy gets the vibe. Fingers crossed, I will get to find out for sure.   Well off to work I go another day another dollar.  You know as I walk its so awesome to see everyone out and about running, biking before work I wish I could do it in the morning as well. 

The next morning on my usual route to work my cock and I both notice Jeffrey.  My mouth drops he just today looks so fucking hot!  Ok I haven’t been on a date in awhile and those urges are kicking in.   I wondering if I have time go run home stroke off before work and start my walk again.  “Morning….you dropped your bag.” ..”What…oh yes! Geez thank you….I am Darren how are you.” Oh well there was no going back my cock was rock hard and needed release but I could not move.  “I am great just out for morning run.   I wish I worked close like you and could walk to work.”  “ Yes it does have its advantages,” The smirk on my face as I watch the sweat slide down his chest on his belly button down to his shorts I want to follow it with my tongue.  “I told my wife that we would love it here.”  WAIT HOLD ON…a wife.  “Your wife? Why doesn’t she run with you?” Jeffery laughs to himself “: Leslie is one of those women who never works out a just drop dead gorgeous….trust me you’ll check out my wife.” Little does he know she will probably become my best friend….. I laugh to myself then procede to tell him “:No I would prefer to check you out.” He smiles and say “ OHHHH…that’s cool man…I am flattered well she will be here on Friday we should all hang out.  Maybe you can show us around town.”   Great I want to be a third well to a hot gorgeous couple all I want to do is let Jeffrey fuck me behind these bushes but he is married.  Oh well my hard on is gone “ Id be more than happy to,” “If you have  a special guy in your life bring him along.” Well it was suppose to be you is all I thought.  “No one special it will just be me.” Off to work I am still dazed and confused from Jeffrey I don’t even realize that I am on ground.” FUCK!! My ankle hurts so bad.  I trip and can barely stand and Jeffrey is gone.  “Can I help you up?” “Thank You I am idiot tripped on the crack and my bag and ankle broke my fall.” “I am Jason are you ok to make it to work? “I am THANKS!” I storm off limping away.  It hit me later I was such an asshole to this Jason guy.  Jason was no were close to Jeffrey was about 5’9” 175lbs and a 34in waist, graying hair and just not JEFFREY! Oh well I need to apologize if I ever see him.  

It was a long checking over reports making sure everything was ready for work today.  I need my coffee splurge.  I left a few minutes early to get my coffee ok and a muffin….You know I have been working out hard have my six pack I deserve my carrot muffin.   Walking in and waiting in life wouldn’t you know it was Jason. I smiled walked over and as I said Hello….Jason nervous taking a bite out of his bagel had jelly drop on his  shirt.  Jason had a little belly and he franticly rubbed his shirt only to make it worse.  I smiled and laugh and he laughed as well.   “I am sorry to startle you and make you drop the jelly….I wanted to apologize to you for my attitude the day…you did not deserve that.  You were only making sure I was ok.”  His smiled could not be any bigger “No need to apologize.” Well can you please let me buy you another bagel with jelly or pay for your shirt to be cleaned. “That is so not necessary but greatly appreciated.” I smiled and Thank him again.  I stared to walk away “Hey Mr. Smooth....you know what you can do? Actually two things you can do”  Who the hell does this guy think he is….”Whats up Mr. Jelly? Number one can I get your real name? and the second can I buy you dinner.?”

Every inch of my body was yelling NO!! He is not Jeffrey. You only date guys like Jeffrey. Jason is  overweight, kind of dirty looking……I don’t like men this.  “Danny and 555-255-555” What I did I just do? It just came out dam! Well at least a dinner wouldn’t be bad.  Great all I could think of driving through a picking a combo meal from a fast food joint.   “I’ll pick you up if that’s ok? Danny” “Sure no problem see you Friday at 6.”  Great I have two days to get sick, have an unexpected emergency…I don’t men like him.  For the next two days I cringed at the thought of the date and of course Jeffrey  running cock swaying in the air that is the man I need in my life. 

Friday 6 oclock is here its seems like I blinked and it was time…Well I thought of just a quick meal and boring conversation.  Great there is a knock at the door.  “Hi….what the…” Jason is staying there jeans, long sleeve shirt, tie, hair all combo and gelled, sleeves rolled up I was taken a back.  He was very attractive he grabbed my hand and reached into kiss my check.  “Danny you are so attractive. Thank You for spending your time with me.” “ No need to thank me I have been looking forward to it.”  WOW it seemed like we drove for every but we went to a local seafood resturarnt I had been wanting to try.  Jason wouldn’t let me get out of the car till he came around and opened the door.  We walked and sat ourselves which I thought was so weird that waiter came over.  Jason asked if he could pick the wine and I agreed.   Dinner was amazing we talked it seemed like hours.  Deseret came and Jason ordered a chocolate pastry “I hope you don’t mind.  I think you will enjoy it” “I am not really a desert but will try.”  The taste melted in my mouth it was pure silk.  Jason smiled and I asked “What?” “You look like it was the first time you had anything that delicious.” “You looked happy.” “It was amazing Jason…thank you I needed that.” Well the date was not over we walked and talk around the park he grabbed my hand but asked if it was ok.  “Sure feels nice” I forgot what this was like and I liked it….I liked Jason we walked talked about your dreams and hopes.  I yawned and felt so bad I was not yawning from boredom it was 1am.  “Danny I am so sorry its 1 am I need to get your home to rest.” 

Jason walked me to my door, hugged me and kiss me on cheek.  In a blink of an eye he was gone.  What I get no good night blow job? He rolled the window down “Thank You” Hell yeah you should be thanking me….I cant believe he didn’t want to come in he did want fuck me.  Well I did him the favor…good night and good ridden.

All weekend why Jason never made a move on me…why he did come in to fuck me….or wait…” He must be a bottom and thought I was too….I would have FUCKED him.” Wait I can’t believe those words came out of my mouth.  No I would not have he is overweight, average looking…..Ok just enjoy Jeffrey running “He really didn’t come in that night.” I walk in for my coffee and Jason and Jeffrey are both there….Jason smiles and waves me over….Jeffrey smiles.  I take my order and Jason asks me to sit. “By Jeffrey…have a good day.” “Oh you know Jeffrey?” yes just casually.   “He and his wife are amazing people and of course he is so hot.” “Yes he is…how are you Jason.”  ‘Fantastic…I have thought about what a great date we had…..It was great right?” Silence on my part “What’s wrong?” “Nothing just something that has been on my mind.” “Talk to me Danny…tell me what I did wrong. “Jason, you didn’t want to come in. You didn’t really want to kiss me.  I never ended a date without at least a blowjob….I felt so unattractive like you didn’t want me.” “What the FUCK! Danny are you serious number 1 you are so attractive and hot…I have admired you for months so trying to work up the nerve to ask you out.  I am sorry I am old fashion I want to get to know you and not just make you a fuck on my list……which that list consists of 8 people in fifteen years…..so if that is your mentality Ill fuck you right now…..I thought you were more than that.”  Danny I sat with my coffee in hand mouth opened and shocked.  No one has ever spoken to me that way.  “Jason,  I am sorry I guess I am not use to it.  You like me?” “Danny don’t get me wrong I would have take you inside ripped all your clothes and fuck you for hours but I am sure as hot as you are….you could have anyone do that to you.” In my mind I am still on the HOURS part.   “Danny if that is all you want…..let’s call it a friendship and end it here….is that what you want?” without hesitation “NO!” What is going on….Do I like Jeffrey? No….I am still stuck on the HOURS of sex.  NO WAY! He looks so dam cute in his bow tie and glasses.  He walks me out “Dinner tomorrow…..6 oclock?” “I can’t wait”

Like clock work a knock at the door Jeffrey knocks at my door.  “Danny you have to be the most attractive men I have ever met.” He leaned in and kissed my lips lightly…I lost my breath…I became aroused.  Why am I am fighting this….he is not my usual date. Of course I would be blowing my date before dinner.   He takes my hand opens the car door and off we go.   We drive for about an hour to another sea food place. “You really like seafood Jason don’t you?” “OMG Danny I am sorry I can take you somewhere else. I should have asked.” “No need to apologize trust me its on my favorites.” WOW Jason must come here a lot we talk in and its like he Norm from Cheers.  We sit down and the waiter rushes over.  “How are you Mr. Scott.” Mr. Scott? This kid is so nervous who in the hell am I dating.  CRAP why did I say dating.  Dam you BRAIN! “Very well Tim” Jason points to things on the menu and Tim scurries off.  “Ok Mr. Scott whats the deal? Who are you?....Jason Scott” “Well I own all these restaurant’s something I have always want do. I love seafood so I bought them. I own 20 stores throughout the state and looking to expand further. Jason talked for hours and I was so enthralled with him. His struggle as kid, coming out to his parents, college, being cheated on by men, it all makes sense now.  “Danny I know I am not your typical guy I am sure you date but I can give you so much that I don’t think you have ever had in your life. I know you are successful on your own. I can give you more than material things.” I grabbed his hand squeezed it and that was my way to let him know I am in.  I want to know more and I want be more. 

On our way home he placed his hand on my knee that along sent shivers through my body.   It was sweet it was like nothing I had ever felt before.  Usually it someone giving me  a hand job before we got back to his or my place.  Jason kept his hands at the knee the whole time.   He came around opened the door and he walked me to my door.  “I can’t Thank You enough Jason for tonight. You really have me in another place right now.” “What do you mean Danny?” “I…..I….just….I just haven’t been treated like this before…..I like it a lot.  I like you Jason and I would like to date you and only you….maybe it’s premature for me to say but something about this feels so right and so good.”

Time stopped we both stood looking at each other.  He moved in and kissed me and I was so great so.   My cock grew to full attention and his did as well.  He moved away and apologized. “You have no reason to apologize….I have never been kissed like that before.” He moved in again and it was like our lips never separated.  “Dam it I hope you wouldn’t think less of me….” I knew what he meant and what was going to happen….”I wouldn’t I am not going anywhere.” He moved in lowered his kisses to my ear and neck.  I took his hand and guided him.  We stood and look into each others eyes and the kissing began again.  He slowly lifted my shirt up kissing ever inch of my chest, so gentle, so delicate, this was so new to me.  I quivered all over at times I thought I was going to cum just from his mere touch.  My pants feel to my ankles and he looked at my body and I never felt so vulnerable.  My head dropped Jason came to me lifted my chin and kissed me like it was the first time.   I moved in and embraced me.  I stripped his clothes and this was the most gorgeous man I have ever seen.  Yes this man who I said was overweight kind of frumpy looking was just the most beautiful specimen standing in front of me.  He grabbed me kissed me slide a finger around to my hole where he gently just rubbed my hole teasing it over and over again.  He kissed my neck and slowly let his tongue trace down my neck, chest to my cock.  My cock was at full attention and this has never happened before but I was precumming.   His touch and kiss have taken me to places I have never been before.   He pulled my skin back and gently lapped the head of my cock and stopped.  He moved back up to kiss my lips and he dropped to his knees and took my cock in his mouth.  He made love to my cock it was gently at time and rough when it needed to be.   I had to push him away I thought I was going to cum.  He stood up grabbed my hand and walked me to my bedroom.  He laid me down and what seemed like hours touch, kissed, licked every inch of my body.  I wanted to return the favor but he would not let me.  “lay back and enjoy Danny….let yourself go.” He licked my shaft and down my balls the warm of his tongue finds his way to my hole.  He flips me over “relax and enjoy” He swirls his tongue all over my hole in and out my body is in state of ecstasy it was so unfamiliar with.  “OMG….I…” I pulled away so fast and scared…”OMG I am so sorry” “Danny I am sorry did I hurt you? …..
“ No…I….” “WOW! Danny that is so hot….please don’t be embarrassed…..I have never seen that much cum before.” “Jason….” “Danny come here…please” I am on my knees move across the bed he grabs me and kisses me like were back at the door.  “OHHHH….guess your not embarrassed anymore.”  Jason point to my aroused cock.  He laid me down he placed himself on top of me kissing me grinding himself into me.  I could tell he was now embarrassed…..”Jason please lay on me.” Jason felt lite as feather Jason lifted my hips and began to slide himself inside of me.  The moans that came out of me were like known I have never heard come out of myself.  Jason was a good thick 7in and he felt so amazing.  When he was completely inside of me he looked at me “Are you ok?” “Yes…..I could not ask for anything better.” Jason slide himself in and out of me.  I have had cocks of different lengths and sizes and I could not believe how this one felt.  I felt so at ease Jason was hitting all the right spots.  My hips bucked I kept pushing myself into him.  “Please don’t Jason…” Jason felt my comfort grinned and began to pick up the pace.  His thrust grew with intensity and I felt my like I needed to cum again.   “Danny I am going to cum!!” I clenched my down on him and wouldn’t let him go.   He collapsed on time of me and kissed me.  He laid next to me and I moved in and laid my head on his shoulders.   This was so different….I didn’t thank him and ask him to leave.  I wanted him to stay and never leave.  Jason stayed with me I slept in his arms.  I woke up first and I had to wake up with him in my own special way.  I slide under the covers and began took his hard cock in my mouth and give him a good morning blow job.  I could see his smile turn into a lustful moan.  I would let me go and swallowed his morning load.

We went on our separate ways started our ways to work.  On my way to work Jeffrey stopped me asked how I was. “Doing amazing Jason….Have a Great Day Jason.” “Jeffrey…my name is Jeffrey” “Oh yeah your right sorry long night.”  Jason came over at night and the magic just continued I laid in his arms and fell asleep just a wonderful night of rest and relaxation. 

   I am about to walk down the isle and there is the man I love.  5 years ago I meet that man who I never thought I would date because he was not my type.  I am about to say I DO to him for the rest life and I couldn’t happier…..I don’t remember being this happy. Oh and the funny thing....Jason's best man was Jeffrey one his friends from college who he was helping with a job out with a job. Jason hired Jeffrey to run one of the restaurants .   

Once a Jerk....Always a jerk? ;-)

Like clockwork my coffee from a local established is placed in my hands by 6:35 and like clock work the customer behind me is here ordering his plain black coffee and double espresso and paying with this very thick looking black credit card.
I sit for a moment and enjoy my coffee before I am off to class and just look at this man I think what an arrogant self centered ass he is. His poor wife must really love him and kids probably hate him, I know I shouldn’t judge but what else can I do. When his ordered his called he snarls at the barista and just walks away. I tip an extra dollar just because I know the struggle they go through.
A week goes by and we in the same place and time. My arrogant self centered ass of a man comes in and without warning bumps into me while waiting in line. I am quick to turn around and defend myself but seeing him stops me cold. “I am sorry I am on the phone already with people at work and I was not paying attention, please forgive me” Every fiber wants to tell him to go to hell but the half of me is so turned on looking at him. His looks, his physique, everything about him just has me standing their like a statue, “No problem, have a good day.” Black coffee and double espresso ordered and out the door he goes. “I am sitting enjoying my coffee and just thinking how lucky his wife is to sleep next such a gorgeous man, but than the arrogant thoughts of him pop back into my head. Oh well time for work.
The next morning guess who is standing behind me and strikes up a conversation. “What do you do for work?” “I am school teacher” “WOW! I couldn’t do what you do Thank you for doing your job.” “Somebody has to it, and what is your occupation?” “I run my own my company but an engineer by way of education.” Gorgeous, Smart, GOD I HATE HIS WIFE. “Well that sounds like a tough job I am sure your great at it” “It has is days I am sure like yours, teach.” My order is called up and I sit to enjoy my coffee and I notice he is in panic he runs out only to come back looking defeated.
“I forgot my wallet at home, I guess its going to be rough morning.”….As he turns to walk out the door “Engineer, here….have a good morning on me.” “Thank You so much that was so not necessary, but I do appreciate it.” “It’s my pleasure, if you can do something nice for someone why not?” “Here is my card stop by my office and I can pay you back.” “Really its not necessary, a simple thank you will suffice.” “I insist see you after work.” His card goes in my book bag like another sheet of paper, no other thought was given. Well school is over and in my car I pull the paper out and figure well with the five bucks he gives me I can go pick up another coffee and head to the gym.
I get to his office and he sees me and he smiles. The fibers in my body fire up they are fighting against each other, he’s arrogant, he’s hot, he acts like an ass, I bet he looks great naked. “Hi, just stopped by like you wanted.” “Of course, thank you again for the coffee back to back meetings and I made it through because of you. Thank You” I smile in my mind I want my five bucks and I want to leave. He heads to desk grabs a little money and heads back towards me. He puts his hand out and gently brushes against my cock. “Excuse me, I am sorry.” “For the past couple of weeks I know you check me out and I am flattered you are a very attractive man yourself….If you were my teacher I know I would not be able to focus at all.” He leans in kiss me and there is no stopping the fibers in my body I want him so bad I have wanted to be touch like this from a man like this. Of course, I look around first for pictures of his wife and kids. He realizes and says to me “I am proud single gay man.” Every inch of my body is now his. Without hesitation, I unbutton his shirt kiss and lick every inch of his chest. His face shows how good it makes him feel he slow pushes my head further down so that I can enjoy every inch of him. I pull his manhood out. Fear, enters my body not know if I can take him. He knew I was scared and looked me in the eye and said “I am here to teach you, teach.” I take every inch of him. Watching his head go back in excitement and his hands placed behind to guide me up and down. He helped me up and with quick swift movement had me bent over his desk. My body exploded from the inside when his tongue hit my spot. In and out all around, “Are you ready?” “Please don’t stop…that feels so good.” “If you think that feels good….wait.” My body shakes and quivers from the experience all already and for what’s coming way. He slowly enters me letting me get use to having him inside it was not long before he was completely inside of me. I felt the thrust nice and slow gradually pick up pace and my bodies reaction was like non I have ever felt before. I have been with men before but this was different. In swift movement I am on my back and he is pounding away with force and vigor like I have never experienced. I felt like I was in such a state of ecstasy I didn’t know where I was. I couldn’t hold it anymore I had to release. “I am going to”…I couldn't even what was in my head.”Shoot for me.” The warmth hits my body and I was done. I laid their lifeless but so satisfied, he slowly pulls himself out of me and strokes himself and the warmth of his release hits my body and face. He kisses me like we have known each other or years. We regroup, get dressed and I am on my way out. He smiles and thanks me again. In my mind I am the one who should be thanking him but all I can do is smile. My body still quivers from the experience I just had.
The next morning with a big smile on my face I walk in and guess who is in front of me. “I never paid you back for the coffee. I asked this nice person what you drank and I went ahead and paid for it.” “Thank You that was so not necessary but I appreciate it.” “I appreciate people like you and your kindness.” I am melting on the inside and on his way out he whispers in my ear “your kindness and tight sweet ass.” wink emoticon
***Complete fantasy***

Do I Even Understand how I feel......

  No one understands how I feel….I am turning 21, great I get to buy beer on my own. I can stop paying my older brother now to buy it for me.  Everyone thought I was the “ MAN “   I dated so many girls in high school you would have thought I was getting laid every night and every morning but ultimately it felt like a chore. To the surprise of many I have never had sex it just something I felt so uncomfortable with.  A few beers and the lost of inhibition I took a blowjob from a girl every now and then.  The uncomfortable feelings I would always have I just never understood.  One of the girls actually swallowed my load completely licked her lips and looked at my so pleased.   I thanked and her and of course told her that was the best I have ever had. 

  I transferred colleges and was starting at this private school.   I wanted to finish as quickly as I could and begin my graduate school work.  Moving in was amazing it felt like a new start it felt like a new me.   Carrying two boxes up the stairs like a rock star I get bumped and my boxes went all over.   “DAM IT…watch it you asshole” He turned around apologized profusely and helped me.  Something in me just turned on standing here look at this guy.  He was 6’0, 185lbs pure muscle, legs that were out of this world.   “My name is David welcome to the hall”  “Hi Dan….sorry about the asshole comment” “No worries…..I am off to see my fiancé, catch up with you later?” “Deal”  his smile was just mind blowing.  The part I loved the most was his Long Island New Yorker accent.

Wait what the fuck is wrong with me.  I like girls I am dating a girl back home I am not suppose to have these thoughts. A few hours go buy, room is done, I walk the campus, come back and ready for a shower.  Heading back to my room I see David, “Hey man sorry about the boxes again let me buy your dinner I will stop by your door come get yeah.” “Really not a problem” “Screw that I am coming to get you we can hit up this new place they built on campus.” I smiled and went into my room. “How fucking embarrassing?” My cock was at full attention and I even felt precum.  What is going on? The way he looked, the towel hanging right below his waist to see his pubic hair.  Before I knew it I was on my bed stroking my cock, grabbing my balls, just imagining David naked with me.  I exploded a hot load on my body and even to my face.  I have never before tasted myself but that ran my finger through my cum and tasted a single drop to my lips and I was so turned on and wanted more.  Then I thought about how he would taste? Reality hit again and I stopped I can’t have these thoughts I have a girlfriend back home.

David came by and I was ready.  God that shirt on him was so tight and fit perfectly.  I wanted to find something wrong with him but I couldn’t.  We talked for hours, he was from Long Island, oldest kid, first in college, soccer player, and engaged.  I told him I was the baby, first in college, had a girlfriend, and just regular guy that goes to the gym.  “Really?” “Yeah I hit the gym, gym like 4 to 5 times a week.”  “No you have a girlfriend backhome.” “Yesssssssss, cool man.” The fear kicked in overdrive, omg does he somehow know that I jerked off thinking of him.  WAIT!! Does he think I am gay? No way I have blowjobs from girls I am the stud back home. I am not gay!

Now October, we became think as thieves, at each others sides.  I meet his fiance, gorgeous, beautiful Latin women.   I had recently become single, which I was not surprised and wasn’t that mad about. David took me to a bar on Halloween we both dressed up as sexy bitches as he says, his fiancé came.  This is truly the night I knew  I started accepting the fact that I am gay. A drunk guy came up to me and started rubbing himself all over me he actually thought I was a women.  David came over pushed him down told him to back off me.   My feelings for David were changing.  Yes we were dressed like the ugliest women in town but what he did that night just made me fall in love and helped me realized I am gay.

Accepting the fact that I am gay I even noticed the others guys in my hall.  My poor cock being jerked off more times in a day than I think it ever had.  I have never given a guy a blowjob, fucked or been fucked but I know every cell in my body is screaming to be touched buy a guy.  “David, can I borrow your phone? I need to call home and I hear static on mine.” “yeah man door is unclocked go in.” I have been in this room so many times but not alone.  His sweaty gym clothes were on the floor and a part of me was curious because I loved the way he smelled but I couldn’t.  On the phone with my mom, catching up and seeing how things are.  David walks in towel around his waist and still wet.   He strips the towel off and drives himself off. “Danny are you there?” ….”Ughhh yeah mom I am here.”  David was always a practical joker he walked over to his bed and I moved quickly he laid down and said “Dan come back to bed and do that to me again….it felt sooooo good.” “I gotta go mom…BYE”.  “What the fuck are you thinking?...that was my mom,” Inside I wanted to jump into bed with him but he laughed and I laughed.  I played it off thanked him for the use of his phone and left.   He ran out the door late as usual to see his fiancé I am on bed stroking off and this time fingering my hole.  The electricity I created in my body was phenomenal.

David came home asked if I wanted to watch a movie in his room, my work was all done so I agreed.  “Hey Dan….gotta question for you?”…”HELL YEAH I WANT A BEER.” Nervously laughing.  “Dan are you gay?” …”Fuck You. No I am not….I am out of here” “Dan its ok if you are man.  I just noticed you were checking me out really hard while I was on my bed….I am flattered man I think you are good looking guy.” Inside my mind I just could not stop thinking of his beautiful 8 inch thick cock.  “I don’t know….I am sorry yes I have checked you and I have started to check out other guys.”  The tears flowed down my eyes I didn’t know what to do.  David walked over and hugged me.  I was his in arms and I have never felt so safe in my life.   He moved in and slowly kissed my lips.  You’re a good man, an attractive guy you shouldn’t be ashamed.   Wiping the tears away “David you are so beautiful to me, and I trust you, you always be my friend and I never want that to end.” “Dan….” “David what tell…..I understand if you never want to talk to me again.”  David grabs me and plants the longest kiss ever.  My cock is instantly rock hard.  I get brave pull myself away and slowly get to my knees.  I unzip his pants and rub my face in his crotch he pulls his cock out for me and I take him in my mouth.  He starts to moan and so excited hearing his pleasure I go down further, gagging of course, but it so becomes so easy.  I can tell he is in ecstasy he grabs the back of my head and is guiding me up and down his cock.  The precum is oozing out of my cock and I can’t stop.  It felt like forever but all of a sudden his body trembled and he yelled he was cumming.  My first blowjob and I swallowed every drop he had to give.  I did not even realize that I had cum all over his floor from just the excitement.  

He helped up and kissed my lips.  “Dan I am not just saying this but that was the best fucking blowjob I have ever had….and even my fiancé hates taking my load. Actually she wouldn’t and that just fucking turns me on.”  I was so proud he asked if we could pass on the movie and call it a night.  He walked me to the door and kissed my lips again.  

I went into my bed with smile on my face and a hard cock again.  I fingered my hole until my cock was ready to blow again.   I passed out and slept like never before.  

The next morning I woke up head to class.  I oozed confidence walked by guys who I had looked at like a shy school girl this time I made sure they knew I was checking them out. 

I ran back to my room and was going to ask David to lunch.  I knocked on his door and no answer.   I thought well maybe he is with his fiancé he had class at 2 so he should be home soon.  I waited and waited but no David.  Its 5 o’clock and I run into the guy who lived across from David.  “David moved out man…..he and his finance decided to push their date up…..man he didn’t tell you, you two were like brothers.” My heart crushed and I just walked away.  You know I finally realized David was put into my life to help me see that I am gay and it’s ok.  I finished my school year and decided to apply to graduate school out of state.  I feel in love, out of love, and started all over again, and now I am in love with man that will be apart of my life forever, and his name is David.  

It All Changes in a Moment.....

BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP…..if I hear that alarm one time I may go crazy. Ahh there she is the love of my life. She has been at my side for 15 years now.  Our relationship started out rough we argued and fought but now after 15 years we have two beautiful children a home in the nice part of town.  We are the lifestyle….”Fuck the Joneses the Martinez’s are what ever American family wants to be.  “ I love stroking her hair and giving her, her good morning kiss on the cheek. 

I wake up the kids to make sure they are up and ready for school. They are so excited because tomorrow is Halloween.  My youngest wants to put on her princess costume and wear it to school.  I just laugh and think how luck I am. “Daddy you are wearing your Superman custom when we go trick or treating? Riiiiighhhhht Dad?” “ Of course honey anything for you girls.” Little did they know I kind like he attention I received from the neighbors. The girls are off getting ready for school and now it’s my turn. 

In the shower I stroke myself get hard I just love feeling my body. Fantasizing, my wife gets up joins me in the shower and we make love before work.  It never happens. Oh well its enough to get my off.  Now 45 I know look better than most 20 year olds and I am dam proud of it.  My stroking intensifies I grab my own balls as they rise and shot my load all over my shower. I watch as it washes away as I recover from the orgasm. 

Stroking my cock is all the attention I seem to get. I know my wife loves me but we haven’t made love in three months or have or crazy fuck night as well call it in forever.   We let ourselves fuck like rabbits all over the house of course the kids are with the grandparents.  “Good Morning babe…the kids are set I am getting them to school…..and Happy Anniversary Babe 15 years and everyday I look forward to spending another 15 more and the rest of my life with you.”  “I love you Danny…you are the man of my dreams.” My cock hardens again as she steps close to me kiss me on the cheek and pulls away.  What is going on is all I can think.  I walk away and take the kids to school. 

Walking into the office shell shocked I get bombarded questions about work.  Today, I just don’t want to be a boss.  My secretary approaches you have the finance meeting at 9 lunch and 11:30 with your wife for your anniversary and an interview at 2:30.  “Can you cancel the interview?” “NO! we have already twice”  My secretary is the real boss, “Ok did you pick the roses for my wife and her favorite……” I look my desk: roses, candy, and theater tickets all waiting.  I turn to my secretary “You know I couldn’t do any of this without you.” She smiled and walks away. 

11:45 ok…texting “Hi Honey at the restaurant let me know if want me order your favorite so its ready when you are here” Sitting waiting picked up the phone with every buzz but no text message from my wife. Its 12:20 something is wrong I throw a 20 on the table and leave a like a bat out of hell.   Frantically calling worried about her I decided to go home maybe she got sick…maybe something she hurt her self. 

Her car is in the driveway and my heart is beating out of my chest.  Why did I come home? I turn the key open the door to find my wife bent over the couch begging a man I have never seen before to fuck her pussy harder. “WHAT THE FUCK!....what the fuck!”  I know where this is going I snap a picture and slam the door. “ “Honey…wait! Don’t leave! Let’s talk,” She runs outside naked to the world as I drive away. I see her drop to her knees begging me to stop.  The tears flow down my eyes for weeks I have wondered what I have done to her.  Then I worried about her maybe it was health related that she didn’t want me to touch her.   We had a period in our lives like this but it wasn’t this long and it was right after our last child.  Why would she do this me?

Back in the office, my secretary knows me so well.  “What’s wrong? Your not the…..” I open the phone to the picture dropped it on her desk and said “Call my attorney.” I walk in my office close and sit in my chair and finally took a breath.   Knock knock….”do you want me to cancel the interview?”  “No we have cancelled it before and really need the extra help around here now that business is taking off.” “I just want you to know……” “ STOP! Call my attorney.” “I am on it”  The tears have dried and the anger has set it.  The vision of my wife being fucked by another man wouldn’t leave my head.  I can’t get him out of my head. What does he have I don’t…He is younger, maybe a few more muscles, his cock looked about the same as mine. Ok his ass was a little bit bubblier but I am not walking with a flat board behind me.   Now I can’t get him out of mind…trying to find something about him that is better than me.   Little did I realize my own cock was hard and I couldn’t understand why. 

KNOCK KNOCK…shit I can not get up from my seat. “Come in!” “Your attorney will call you around 4. Your 2:30 actually is here early he was considered about being late.” “Send him in….in about 5 minutes” She turns and walks away and I praying for my cock to go down. Do I try and stoke off? Shit I feel even more excited this young guy fresh out of college is about to walk in and see his potential boss with a raging hardon. 

“Mr. Martinez….this is Richard your 2:30.” Of course his name has to be Richard, and reference to name to a cock.  He approches my desk with such enthusiasm I barely get up to shake his hand and I ask him to sit down.  Richard was 25, about 6’1 about a good 200lbs of what looked like pure muscle. His suit hugged his body which revealed a vary nice chest and what look liked a nice package.  “Mr. Mart…”  “Please call me Dan” A look of fear struck him….” Ok Dan..let me just say thank you for your time to interview me.” “Richard lets cut to the chase why do you want this job.” “Don’t bore me with your academic background I know you have BS in Economics, MS in Mathematics and an MBA, why do you want this job?” The boss in me kicked and my cock was subsiding so I stand up and turn a little just in case he could still notice my cock.  I am looking at Richard at how attractive he is.  How strong he looks and so vulnerable, but I know those are just his nervous interviewing.  I hear words coming out of his mouth but its means nothing to me.  “Dan…..Dan….Dan….Mr. Martinez…..are you ok?”  “Excuse my Richard!” “Well I am talking to you and have tears flowing down your eyes.” FUCK dam my wife! “ Richard I apologize to you and for your time.  I know we reschedule but I had a life changing event today…..I did not want to cancel on you again.”  Richard walks up to me places his hand on my shoulder and says its no problem. His hand on my shoulder instantly puts me at ease. He glances down and no fault to him he noticed the picture on my phone of my wife getting fucked.  “I am so sorry…I am so sorry….I am so sorry….” “Richard its ok….I walked in my wife today and its our anniversary” “Well if you don’t mind me saying she is stupid you are an attractive man and obviously very intelligent and…….” Richard smiled as he looked at my cock. What the HELL I am hard again.  “I am sorry Richard my heart and head hurt but obviously another part of me does not.” We laugh and he bravely moved in and grabbed my cock. I push away quickly.  “Richard I am sorry. Please!...let’s forget about it.  I really want to hire you and I am not gay” Richard moves in and grabs me again and I don’t pull away.  He strokes my cock through my pants, unzips them and slides his hand in.  All I could think how great it felt my own wife didn’t do this.  He looked at me and we kissed thought I know I was awkward I never kissed a man. Hell my own father just got a peck on the cheek.  He felt so nice he unbutton and pulled my cock and in one quick gulp his nose was in my pubic hair.  Up and down my cock his tongue hitting all the right spots.   I almost forgot want a blowjob felt like.  I knew I could not do as good job as he did but I want to return the favor.  He moaned in ecstasy I wanted to give myself a pat on the back.  He slides out of his pants and positions himself over my desk.  “You can eat it!” “I have never eaten….” “Think of it like a pussy…eat my ass like a pussy.” His ass was so muscled and smooth my tongue hit his hole and it twitched. I went to town on his ass just like he said.  It was amazing! “ Deeper…stick your tongue in deeper” “Fuck Dan….keep going.” My hands spreading ass cheeks as far as I could to make my tongue go as deep in and out of his smooth beautiful hole.   My cock has never felt this hard before.  Like it was second nature to me I turned him over on his back and slide my cock into his hole. I thought I was about to cum! The sensation of how tight his hole was sent shockwaves through my body.  My cock going in inch by inch every second felt so mind blowing. Richard squirming all over relaxed and started pushing his hips into me.  I felt like I could blow any minute.  I put my hands at his waste thrusting myself deep inside of him.  The sensations of his warm tight hole around my cock no words can describe how I am feeling.  Richard bucked with excitement and he began to stroke his own cock.  “Fuck me harder…I love your balls slapping my ass..shot that load in me….Your cock feels so fucking good,”  “Fuck yeah Richard you like this cock deep in you!” I swear I felt like Richard was in my head and the things I wanted with my wife say and do he was doing it.  I could feel my balls rise and I knew I was about to cum.  I pulled out and told him to swallow my load. He slide off the desk mouth open waiting.  “Richard I am going to cum…..” I shot my load inside this young mans mouth and he swallowed it all…then he took my whole cock is mouth to make sure I was clean.  The load that came out of me shocked me.  After shooting a load in the shower this morning I didn’t expect such a big load to come out of me. He shot his load on my floor and we sat there together: Naked, sweaty, out of breath. Is this who I am? Am I gay? I just had sex with young man and it was the best experience I have ever had.   I have had my fair share of women but the sensations and feeling inside of me just I can’t explain it.   I am just upset about my wife….thats it? “Dan….can I be honest with you?” “We are sitting here naked on your interview, you allowed me to fuck you which I have never been with a man, and you swallowed my load…..you can be completely honest.”  “ I came here out of curiosity I accepted a job offer in another state but you were the first person I wanted to work with after school.”  I chuckled out loud and he looks at me with a look of uncertainty “Richard I want you to work here I was going to offer you whatever you liked but you are so valuable I knew you had already taken an offer elsewhere.  I just wanted to see what you were coming here for.  Were you going to ask me for money? A higher title? I think you taking the other offer in my opinion is best for you so you can move up the ranks very quickly, if you want my advice. “ “ I appreciate that very much and after our interview I know I would have enjoyed working for you but your right.” We dress and I walk him to the door.  “Can I call you before you I leave Dan? Maybe for some career advice again?” “I would like that but I think its me who is going to need you for advice”  Mental note to myself get a secretary who doesn’t know me so well.  She says goodbye to Richard walks in behind and tells me. “Zip your fly your cock is getting hard again like earlier.” “By the way……nothing.” “Wait….what?” “ I have known you for years since we were high school together and can I say I have never seen you this happy.” I walked in closed the door sat in my chair and felt like I could breath finally.